The Word Chose Me

The end of 2010 has come and gone and we're into 2011. I'm happy 2010 is over. Not so much because it was a bad year. It wasn't. But the number kind of bothers me. 20 minus 10 is 10, 10 plus 10 is 20, that sort of thing. 2010 is kind of freakish number. I'm just weird that way.

We've been home for a week now and we've both had the worst colds we've had in years. Lots of naps, not much done, a lot of time for introspection. Soul searching even, and to me that means looking inside your heart.

A while back Erin at Treasures Found, talked about chosing a word for the year as an alternative to a New Year resolution. A word that could give you direction for the year. I like that idea. I don't like resolutions. They often do not feel like they come from the heart for me. But I do like the idea of having direction. Something like a star to guide your navigation.

Which got me to thinking did I have a word? Did I have one last year? I didn't actively choose a word last year but one chose me. Healing. Behind the scenes here at Summers Studio an intense year of healing occured. It was an ever present theme in my life. Old memories, old wounds to my heart, the core of my being  were excavated, dusted off, examined.

And along the way, my heart began to open in ways that I never dreamed possible. I feel good. I feel in control despite the fact that their are many uncertainties facing us this next year. Now if this nasty cold would leave, I might even feel powerful!

But it seems another word has chosen me. Transformation. Not in the Websters definition of 'change in appearance, altering the composition, etc.' But a deeper more spiritual inner change. One that can't be seen but can really only be felt in your heart.  It feels good.

I don't know how it will effect my art. I know that healing already has. I can look and see the emotional hurdles I've leapt across and see how it is expressed in what I make. I'm ready to hitch my navigation this next year to the star of transformation. And I trust my heart will follow.

I have thoroughly enjoyed sharing my world with you and getting a peek into yours. You've all been such an important part of my life over the last year. I really can't thank you enough.

Wishing the very best for this new bright shiny year!