Friday, December 16, 2011

The Recluse



I like solitude. It's not that I'm antisocial. I just happen to be one of those people who has always enjoyed sitting quietly with my thoughts and working with my hands. It occurred to me that over the last couple of weeks I've become down right reclusive. Not many words on this blog lately. Not really very many words in general.

I think it is the time of year. For me I spend a lot more time in contemplation. I think about my children when they were young and the magic moment of opening up their stockings on Christmas morning. The absolute joy they had unwrapping small things like chocolates and match box cars. I think about Christmas this year with our  grand daughter. I've been put in charge of the stockings. It's an awesome responsibility but it makes me smile because Santa must have done a pretty good job in the past to be given such a special job this year.

I think about our sons and daughters coming home from Iraq this month and feel joy that they will come home to their families. I am reminded of the 2 Christmases my son spent in Mosul. I think of the Christmas he spent in Afghanistan last year away from his new family. And that he will be in Afghanistan again next year at Christmas. It makes me mindful of the blessing we have of sharing Christmas with him this year.

I think about the order I just made and shipped off yesterday. It's one with a story that moves me to tears. I am grateful to have been a small part of something so special. I sit with that story and let it become part of me. I can't tell the story right now. It is too new. I need to absorb it.

And I knit. Four scarves, two hats, a pair of mittens, and one special tiny project that makes me smile deep inside my heart. Knitting gets me through the many thoughts and emotions that comes with the holidays. It is a little like meditation or using prayer beads. Each stitch quietly filled love for someone special.

I hope you all are feeling the joy of the holiday season and savoring the magic moments that the season brings.

13 comments:

Katie said...

I might have to use similar words to yours the next time my husband calls me "antisocial." I've never been one of the social butterflies of the world - I too enjoy time by myself to think and do what I'm doing....

But, I'm also glad that you (and I) can find the time in your life to sit and reflect on the year and the people you love...all the while creating - whatever that may be :o)

I know I haven't posted or e-mailed a lot this year (HOW is it already December???), but you know I love ya and wish you a great holiday season - Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, and all that wonderful stuff :o)

*hugs*

mairedodd said...

i am happy that you are so at peace...

TesoriTrovati said...

With the lengthening shadows it is natural to turn inward to find the light. You are doing just that. I am reminded of how generous my friends are at this time of year. I am so happy that the troops are on their way home. I am delighted to hear that you are so at peace in the place where you are. Blessings. Enjoy the day.
Erin

stregata said...

Being a bit of recluse myself, I can totally understand you. I am happy to know that you are contemplating happy thoughts and magic moments. Sending big hugs.

Izzy said...

Sending a big hug, my hermit sister... =)

windrock studio said...

I hear you and understand completely and I'm so very happy that you know to just enjoy the moments.
I'm also happy that your family will be all together ~ have a wonderful Christmas and we'll see what the New Year brings!

Mary Newton Designs said...

I'm a solitary person also and we are not always understood. Like you, I have derived great joy from being able to help others. It also makes me feel more "connected".

Cindi said...

What a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing you personal thoughts with us. I just finished a post about how the blogs I follow have inspired. You have truly inspired me today. Thank you and Merry Christmas.

sharon said...

I feel so much like you LeAnn, and I love the holidays for the time I can just sit and enjoy it, and absorb it all, and spend precious time with family.
Enjoy!

Cindy said...

LeAnn, I think I can really understand how you've been feeling. Amidst the constant activity around here, I find that I really long to find time for quiet (so I stay up so late!). You have a wonderfully appreciative perspective - reflecting on Christmases past when your kids were small and now holidays with your own granddaughter. I just know you must be feeling a sense of peace and I'm glad for you.

Lori @ Studio Waterstone said...

What a wonderful post and warm thoughts. I can 100% totally relate to the solitude thing - it's good. :)

Have a wonderful Christmas.

Pretty Things said...

I love to knit. And sometimes quiet is the best thing.

My Life Under the Bus said...

I grew up an only child so I definately enjoy my *alone time* - I get down right cranky when I don't get any!!! I hope you had a very Merry Christmas!